"But you can only go so long being angry before you learn to hate."
- Katja Millay
"I didn't belong in this world anymore. It's not that I wanted to be dead, I just felt like I should be."
"I think I’ll stay in pieces. I can shift them, rearrange, depending on the day, depending on what I need to be. I can change on a whim and be so many different girls and none of them has to be me."
"People who have never been through any sort of shit always assume that they know how you should react to having your life destroyed. And the people who have been through shit think you're suppose to d..."
"My jealousy is a living thing. Shifting, changing, growing. Like my rage and my mother's regret."
"I'd watch her, amazed at just how much a person could accomplish fueled by tea and regret."
"My phone is on my bed, whispering in my ear like a bottle of scotch to a recovering alcoholic, while the rain continues cackling at me through my window."
"I stayed in therapy long enough to know that nothing that happened to me was my fault. I didn't do anything to invite it or deserve it. But that just makes it worse. Maybe I don't blame myself for wha..."
"I hate my left hand. I hate to look at it. I hate it when it stutters and trembles and reminds me that my identity is gone. But I look at it anyway; because it also reminds me that I'm going to find t..."
"Maybe I don't need to save her forever. Maybe I can just save her right now, in this moment, and if I can do that, maybe it will save me and maybe that can be enough."